All of this makes for a super stressed Meghan. Also, when I get stressed, I tend to let me eating go to crap. I just don't care. I'll eat just so my brain will keep working. I know it's not the best, but I feel like I have to do it. Right now, doing well in school is most important. That's not to say I don't want to be healthy, but if I put on a few pounds in pharmacy school, I shouldn't be so obsessed with it. I mean I don't have access to stellar food ( fried food in the grill and everything is fried in the caf. bleh) and I do work out ALOT but that doesn't seem to help. frustration is setting in. It make me want to give up... GRRRRR
Also, because I'm so stressed, I can't sleep well. like i went to bed at 3 am this morning ( after bf left) and I woke up at like 10 AM. considering this is one of two days of the week I can actually sleep in, that's frustrating. Oh well I guess it gave me some "me" *time this morning, which I'm very grateful for. Promise. Even if I don't sound like it ;)
Please pray for calmness and understanding this week. That I study well, give myself breaks when I need them and that I don't put my body under too much stress (excessive workouts) and that I give it enough food. ( I know that sounds elementary, but I really do have trouble doing it...)
How does school ( or the like stressor) make you feel about your weight? does it make you gain?
